This is a Passion

Work bogs me down, consumes me and rules me just as it should. I care about my job and the work I put into means so much to me-- It is my job, I am fortunate to have it and I love my job.  There are points that have some serious deadlines and requires my full undivided attention. When it's all over I reflect and realize how much I enjoy the rush of the final days until the BIG deadline, though within that reflection I realize I completely throw all my personal fitness goals and beliefs out the window. My mission is to learn how to give my all to work and still stay strong with my passion for a fit-clean lifestyle.  My family is more than supportive and I have that balance down pat--of course there are hiccups along the way-- but we work them out and carry on.  When at work I can't just stop and say 'I need to workout' and leave...that wouldn't bode well to a room full of amazing volunteers! Nor would that make me feel like a strong team member.

My goals include owning a whole new physique, getting within the pages of Oxygen Magazine (I know I know sounds silly-but, hey that's me being real here), and inspiring others to capture the eat-clean lifestyle along the way! Those mentioned goals require A LOT more than just eating clean...they require hard bloodsweattearswork. Got that!?! I can't mess around. People mock or joke with me about my FB post, but this really does mean everything to me-- it consumes me!  All I think about is what to do in the gym, how to push harder, how to saturate myself in this industry and where this hard work can take me.

I have successfully kept 40lbs off for the past two years by maintaining an 'eat-clean' diet. I am tired of maintaining-I have proved that much to myself-I am ready for the next level. So, it's time get these goals in motion... Here is my plan: 

Keep my diet tight and clean- 100%

No alcohol

Leave it all in the gym

Log food and workouts

Stay in touch with my body & emotions

Balance

Enjoy myself

Sleep

Portion control

Try new things

On the note of trying new things.... I have never worked with a personal trainer, to be honest I am WAY afraid. Afraid? Why?...I don't know why. Well, maybe I do a little bit... I feel like working with a trainer leaves you very vulnerable and open to total scrutiny. I am so insecure and HATE being in the spotlight and vulnerable to judgment...you wouldn't think that with my Gemini 'tude, but it's true. SO, to stay true to my 'plan' I have reached out to a trainer, a friend who happens to be a trainer, WHICH IS EVEN WORSE!!! UH! Only my closest friends can judge me and this is me REALLY REALLY pushing myself out of my comfort zone. Sigh. This is part of the process -- getting uncomfortable so I can achieve my passion. GULP! 

I start May 1st with my trainer :-) I will, of course, keep you posted. To add to my discomfort I have joined a boot camp that is scheduled twice a week -- I have no idea what is in-store, but I am up for the challenge! :-) 

Do you have goals, goals that frighten you? Write them down and start achieving them! 

Have a great day.

xo