This is Part of the Process

"You may think the grass is greener on the other side, but if you take the time to water your grass it would be just as green"
 -Unknown

We all know it takes work to get what we want in our lives. Sure, there are short cuts...for me, it was diet pills, and I told you where that got me. It takes a disciplined mind to achieve goals. No matter our goals we need to embrace the discipline involved.  I am always looking for inspiration, direction and motivation through books, Facebook fan pages, videos, etc.. When I dive into these sources I quickly realize just how much these women (and men) work their butts off.  I admire their disciplined mind. Something that does not happen over night. 

After seeing my best friend run his first marathon, I knew this was something that I just had to do. In the Spring of 2011 I started training for what would be my first 1/2 and a full marathon. In the earlier stages of my training I would sob, absolutely sob as I ran.  My emotions would rush. I was afraid of of failure, I had fear of achieving the marathon, I was out of my "comfort" zone and had to find the strength to get out there and stay out there.  The emotions were SO powerful and came on so quick, I would "cry it out", and once I was done I felt stronger. I felt a sense of freedom. I chant; "this is part of the process". The pain, discomfort, fear, awkwardness was ALL PART OF THE PROCESS. It was (and still is) SO important that I experience this and I don't want to forget those pains. When I self-reflect I think of those pains and emotions and am quickly reminded that I do not want to go back there. I have been blind too long - I have ignored myself too long. That was my choice then and now it is my choice to pay attention - take the blinders off and change what I hate. 

Spring through Summer I trained very hard, gave it my all and my dedication was 100%. September I completed my first 1/2 and a knee injury and fear prevented me from completing my full.